SYSTEM IMPALED

Relinquishing the system
A series of qualms
A feeling of hatred
For the power is in their hands
She was a fraud
Who defined nonchalance
Deprived the poor
And cheated the other half

She went on revelling
Until every single word unveiled
Life imprisonment and immediate deaths
A word with her and her fucking system
She was broke when things turned worse
As the system failed to escape retaliation
Chaos prevailed as her face turned pale
Helpless she was waited for her death

System impaled
Bloody beginnings
The power was snatched
As the cunt was put to death

"This is the place where I belong
 I really love to turn you on
 I’ve got your sound still in my ear
 While your traces disappear
 I climb the stage again this night
 ’cause the place seems still alive
 When the smoke is going down"

Back From Sodom

Fiendish deeds and irrelevant thoughts

Saw them rage and revolt in fear

Evil forces rise from the grave

Unpreceedented wait for retaliation

Back from sodom

Jeopardizing a life in their hands

Where necrophilliacs roam about

Stench decay of flesh

Staring at an evil face

Following the footsteps as they went

Feel the hollowness inside

Scattered masses of funeral pyre

Back from sodom

Jeorpadizing a life in their hands

Where necrophilliacs roam about

Stench decay of flesh

Infested cadavers and efficient dead meat

Decrepit organisms all over the place

They are the guardian of evil and dead

A place secured with human blood

Back from sodom

Jeorpadizing a life in their hands

Where necrophilliacs roam about

Stench decay of flesh

24th November

Today oh today
You know its a very special day
Last year same time
You had become mine
Since then you make me happy
Even though i am scrappy
Remember what i said?
Remember how i said?
I'll say it once again
So that you can rack your brain
HAPPY ANNIVERSARY
HAPPY ANNIVERSARY
(OH BABY)HAPPY ANNIVERSARY..
HAPPY ANNIVERSARY

A little bit of this and a little bit of that :)

YOU ARE SOLACE

Allow me to cut my life in two halves
One for the bad and one for the love
Down the pecking order, was i?
Rampaging was always a choice
Eyes burning like a ball of fire
Reflecting my morose identity
Weary days 'n sleepless nights
There was none who could end my fights
Lack of serenity, my mind ran amok
Was in need of someone with whom i can talk
I can share my laughter and be a part of
Petrified was i, yet persuasive enough
I tried to avoid the past
Which had no spice, all but dust
Life is an impostor if you know what i mean
As it tried to immaculate my mistakes
It may deceive a normal heart
But for me everything changed with you
No more weary days and sleepless nights
As you have ended all my fights
Now i needn't be complacent
For it might be a trick that life has played
Incompetency was justified 
Yet innocuous was i
You had a reason to love me
You had a reason to hold me tight every-time
For the time was conducive enough for me
To go ahead and seek refuge
You were like a mother
To guide me throughout
For the tough times and the battles i have won 
I wouldn't have done it without you
Almost a quarter of my life has passed
More than a quarter to go
You are a temptation blessed with grace
YOU ARE SOLACE

The Martyr's Song

this is an excerpt not for the weak

as for the living it is vague

for the dead it matters the least

worshipping was never a desire

a force that had occupied many minds

i was one of them,stabbed mercilessly

for i believed in something 

something that defamed the leaders

the incoherence my speech reveals

plethora of bloodshed and repugnancy

inhuman and repulsive they are

incompatibility separated the living and the dead

for they believed in no supreme power

victimized was i,alibis removed

i was haunted for over a fornight

before they brought me down

and i was deprived of all earthly pleasures

it is as if a requiem has been kept

to repurify the work undone

it was more of a killing spree

they had a cause behind the killing

men who tried to oppose

met their grave very soon

i was one of them,stabbed mercilessly

for i believed in something

something that had kept them worried

it was a mere fantasy despite the risk

for i needed no supreme power

only martyrdom provides me solace

for i feel reposeful yet again

i was one of them,stabbed mercilessly

for i believed in something 

something that had decieved many minds
as it was more of a killing spree

5/11/2011

SO MUCH TO SAY TOO LITTLE TO BLOG...

Whispers Of True Love

i wonder how u came into my life
you were just another girl
pretty u were but i was hardly moved
we killed a lot of time together
yet we hardly had time for each other
you had a different world
in which i was an alien
fame had failed to inflate you
it was as if time was cheating me for good
l knew i was lacking something
it may sound bizarre but i did not know
then came the day we met
we talked,smiled nd went away
deep down there was a hitch
were you the one for me?
i had been relentlessly stupid
as i couldn't cope with my feelings
one day when i let them out
i realised i had let them out for good
you had felt the same way i did
senses were in a defunct state
we killed a lot of time together
and we hardly had time for others
i was almost a part of your world
before you became my world
i had only wished to be your guide throughout
but you had some other plans up your sleeves
you were very contagious dear
as you had blown me away with your charm
and i better not talk about how pretty you are
because it might end up as an injustice to you
bewildered yet gay was i when you became mine
only if i could visit a shrine
winters came,winters gone
and i adore the way i had grown in your love
together we met with difficulties
and bid them goodbye with a smile
over the months i had been visiting so many places
but your place was the best place i had visited so far
day in and day out
i fall in love with you over and over again
i always had a desire to know
why do you love me the way you do?
your love is incorrigible
and i compete with it to love you more
and today i owe you a lot of things
as you are the sole reason
behind my life being so beautiful
i remember how you had hugged me for the first time
i remember how you make me feel special everytime
any other girl wont do that i'm sure
you have the power in you to give life to a dead man
you can never be spurious,you can never be untrue
your face,its all written over it
you have given me a new life,a new feeling
a feeling of TOGETHERNESS......

God an impostor or another unrelenting surge of human ERR?

GET A LIFE KIDS..SAYS WHO??YOUR BLOODY GOD :)..HOW DARE YOU STEP ON UR SANDAL WHEN YOU KNOW DAT GOD IS OMNIPRESENT? :P..GET UR  BASICS RIGHT BEFORE YOU FLAUNT UR LOVE FOR GOD..FEED URSELF WID AMPLE KNOWLEDGE ABOUT SUPERNATURAL POWERS ND DEN WE SHALL FIGHT OVER ITS EXISTENCE...AND YES CARRYING AN 'ATHEIST' TAG DOESNT MAKE U COOL OR SOMETHING...                            
                                                                                                                                 THANK YOU
                                                                                                                                 YOURS TRULY

We are Liverpool Football Club and the expectations are so high-Stevie G

A born champion.Mr liverpool has been out for quite some time now.I cannot wait for his return to anfield.He has alwyz been my favourite soccer player nevertheless a huge inspiration.YNWA..The days of glory will be back..

A Picture Worth AN ARM AND A LEG

This pic has really something very special about it.The smile,her posture,wasted bricks and evrything.

Lord Messi at Kolkata

2nd september,2011 is an epic day of my life.One of my major wishes have come true.HE came,showed HIS magic,proved HIS credibility and went away with all the respect HE could have got.The awesomeness about HIM is dat everytime he was tackled he went up wid a smile on his face nd i cudnt resist myself whenever HE waved his hand at us.It was scintillating watching HIM from the stands.I was totally surprised to see how passionate people are abt football.There were a few Yugoslavians whom we met while we were an hour or so away from the big event.

"I used to love her,

But I had to kill her

I knew I'd miss her,

So I had to keep her

She's buried right in my backyard"-Axl Rose

Molly-ka

molly baby i miss u tonight
molly baby why dont u come to me tonight?
molly baby i miss u tonight
molly baby why dont u come to me tonight?

its been long,long time since i'hv seen u
its been long,long time since i'hv teased u

molly baby i really miss u tonight
molly baby oh please will you come to me tonight?

its been long,long time since i'hv felt u
its been long,long time since i'hv kissed u


will you come and hold my hand?
molly come and take me away
why have you been so far?
molly i want you here now

molly baby i miss u tonight
molly baby why dont u come to me tonight?
molly baby i miss u tonight
molly baby why dont u come to me tonight?

its been long,long time
its been long,long time nd i miss u

and i forgot the distance
i dont care abt it
molly come,come to me tonight
molly baby i miss u tonight

Godfather

My first gig with an electric guitar has been a memorable one.I would like to thank my groupmates Sandipan Roy,Sayan Ray,Ayan Sengupta,Ayan Biswas and Hirak De for working their asses of tfo make this event a successful one.Lastly,each and every fucking spectator who had supported us while we were up their on stage,hats off guys without you it wudn't have been possible.

TWENTY

 Two decades hv passed within a whisker.While i was at the peak of my teenage life i ws not at all excited about my 20th bday.I often indulged in reminiscence bt the outcome ws pretty awefull.For the past 5 or 6 yrs i never went out of my house on my bday.This yr it ws somewhat heading towards the same until MAM MUKHERJEE brought the cutest twist in the tale.

Friday, the 5th of august was totally wasted because of rain nd it looked as if my bday will be a pretty wet one.I kept my hopes alive nd went to college thinking viscerally the rain wud stop at some point of time.It ws drizzling nd after a while things slowed down.Moulika Mukherjee looked more xcited dan i was.She is a sweetheart.I was in a blue kurta while she came in a green salwar suit which ws inaugurated on dat day itself.From the morning she kept on reminding me that it ws my bday.As the clock striked 12 we started off wid our formalities.I wont call it formalities if dat sounds harsh.My frnds brought my fav cake on my bday.It looked wonderfully beautiful wid candles on it.The cake ws soon murdered nd by the time every bits n pieces hv been swallowed the rain came pouring down again.My girl had planned a beautiful surprise for me which wud'nt have been possible if the rain had'nt stopped.Fingers crossed,a feeling of disgust,yes my girl looked shattered when the rain looked unstoppable dat day.For the time being we planned to visit south city nd hoped for the rain to stop.

We reached south city nd had our lunch nd in the mean time i kept on guessing wat actually the surprise ws.She ws reluctant to ruin her surprise by spilling the beans so early bt she had promised me dat if the rain doesnt stop she'll let me know everything.I became more curious nd my heart wanted the rain to stop immediately.There were two reasons i wanted the rain to stop..1>i ws too curious nd xcited both 2>my girl had planned dis surprise long time back,if it wudnt have striked she wud hv been heartbroken..It was almost 4'o' clock on my watch nd i felt the rain had actually stopped.It ws a blessing in disguise.The happiness in her eyes ws irresistible.We went out of south city nd reached esplanade.She said my surprise ws 10mins away from esplanade.We took a bus nd we reached babughat.i was like "what the hell are we supposed to do here?"..She held my hand nd goaded me through a narrow lane dat ended up infront of a line of boats.A boatman came up nd took us down.

The next 30 odd mins ws the best time i ever had in my life.She hired a boat for the two of us nd i was at cloud 9 when both of us sat staring at each other while the boat kept sailing on.She said it wud hv been perfect if the sun had peeped through the clouds bt then i ws the happiest person nd i coudnt stop but thank her for this beautiful surprise which she had planned to make my 20th bday so so special.It was an awesome feeling sitting underneath the clouds which spared the rain only to turn the planned surprise into reality.Wind ws blowing hard,river water was turbulent and in the middle of everything the water vehicle moved on and the two of us cud'nt stop smiling looking at each other.I will never forget this day ever in my life.THANK YOU MOULIKA MUKHERJEE FOR THE DAY,LOVE YOU LOADS...

And a few other people i would like to thank:-
HIRAK,SUBHAYAN,SAYANDIPTA,SATABDI,SAYAN,DOLA,ABHISHIKTA,POOJA,OLIVIA, SACHIN..


Most importantly -MOM,Thank You for the trouble you took to provide light to my eyes.You're the best..

Everything about HER

Am i so lucky??or is it an illusion??..it was the early days of my college life when i was freaked out by some distasteful circumstances out there..i thought college life was going to be my worst experience ever..a very few friends offered me with some breathing space at a freakshow called college..it was an amusing yet horrifying start to my college life..with all sorts of amorous people around,i thought i had already dug in my own grave..the onus was on her to dulcify my mistake...you must be wondering who SHE is??i hate spilling the beans so early...(stops beating around the bush and gets back to HER)..i never thought someone would make my college life  oh-so-special...the first time i saw her,it was our audition round for the freshers party..that time i was a reluctant bastard who was hardly bothered by this "scenic beauty"..i was a retard,i never went up and offered her a "hello" either..The first time we had a chitchat ,it was mani square..she was late "AS ALWAYS"..precisely it was facebook which helped me a lot..i was supposed to collect all the pictures she clicked that day through facebook..i was too jubilant to know her..she complained that i was too harsh on her when my friend sayan introduced her to me at college..so i say a sorry and a thank you..time has been my enemy all throughout my life...2months passed within a whisker,we went out and had a lot of fun during the pujas..den came her bday..i never realized i had already fallen for her...i remember telling GUDDU everything..i even pointed her out in front of him..it was not too long when i cudnt keep my feelings to myself..NOVEMBER 23rd,2010..we returned together..as soon as i reached my house i let her know everything...(I WILL NOT DISCLOSE WHAT I SAID)..she was confused....i had a feeling that she might abuse me to death..bt no,she dint,she took her time to decide whether i am the guy she wants to spend THE REST OF HER LIFE with..NOVEMBER 24th,2010..12 27am...was the time on my cell phone when she had finally decided nd i became the happiest person alive..she had her practical xam dat day, nd after dat we met nd for the first time our hands were locked together as we returned home wid joy nd laughter..she is the best person i ever met in my life..no i am not all biased..calling her pretty nd cute are understatements so i wud prefer skipping dat god damn thing..she has been my 2nd mother..no exaggerations meant..she kept on poking at my health whenevr i wsnt well...she has alwyz carried an unambiguous personality..she was rather lucrative(on a parliamentary way)...ready to compromise all the time...my MOM often carried a blasphemy dat i wud never get a girlfriend...look MOM here i am,nd ur son has the best girl in the world...to add to the controversy,she and i have been two opposite poles of a magnet..yes a 100 out of 100 times..still,i bet u cnt break our bond....i ws alwyz criticized and termed wid a few adjectives..some of dem r..unromantic,insensitive..blah blah...now people dont even dare to tag me wid such bullshit..honestly,falling in love or having a girlfriend ws never my cup of tea until i had fallen head over heels for HER..the wise men once said..if u MARRY at haste,u must repent at leisure..FUCK YOU WISEMEN..i'll marry her neday my will is good...holidays r but my enemies...dese r the only days i dont get a glimpse of HER..again,FUCK YOU HOLIDAYS..we do meet at times...she has made each nd every moment of my life special...SHEZ THE BLOODY BEST....love killing time wid her..she has alwyz been a gift of the gab..draws too many conclusions at times,yet the best thing alive...she is priceless to look at nd spend time wid..shez more dan just a girlfriend..steven tyler has this saying

"I go crazy, crazy, baby, I go crazy

You turn it on

Then you're gone

Yeah you drive me

Crazy, crazy, crazy, for you baby

What can I do, honey

I feel like the color blue... "

this is exactly wat i wanna tell u all the time..with reverence...BOW DOWN!!at times when i'm wid u it is as if i stare at the oblivion..we have already killed 7months of our life together..good old memories GIRL...i love that bunch of hair dat covers my face wen u come closer to me..from dusk to dawn it is u who keeps a wicked smile on my face..

And dis is no gift GIRL..dis is just to remind u how happy i am wid u nd how badly i want to make u happy..i just want u to keep smiling like u do all the time..

PS-YOU'LL NEVER WALK ALONE....

Yours(only) TOM.....

All about TMA

Well, friends say school life is the best phase in one's life....from the very first day to the very last day, school life is always something full of merriment, laughter, tears and what not..i had a similar tale to tell..i don't have a clear picture about my first day in school..it was something like, i was a bit different, off the society to be precise..neither i cried nor was i excited about my school..my dad got transferred and i went to a school in paradip(orissa)..i remember getting up early and going to school in a van which was slower than a pregnant snail(no idea if it's a mammal)....after i had completed my kindergarten stage and already spent 6 summers of my life,we were back in calcutta..i had applied for The modern academy(TMA) and B.D memorial..finally TMA was in my cards..i was very stubborn, and it took me 30 odd minutes to settle down and get adjusted to all the malicious studs around...Siddhant Sanyal and Souhitya Chakrabarty were my first partners in crime from TMA..initially they tried to poke fun at me but soon they realized my uncanny attitude and they became very good friends...our class teacher was always pissed off with me, yet she used to love(platonic) me as we shared the same title..as the days passed by, my mom became very popular among the teachers..she had to attend a "parent's call" every alternate day...punishment was like a daily bread for me at school...statistics show, i had spent more time outside the class than i did inside..i had a few other friends to accompany me...as the years passed by, i got acquainted to many good friends...some of them are rohit banerjee,samik some,sabyasachi das,tanmay ashish,rajrup ghosh,deepak kumar panda,agniv dass,rajiv sinha,ishan mazumder,debanka mitra,ranajit sengupta,akshay dimri,anupjyoti ghosh,ankit agarwal,saptarshi sen...sorry if i had missed anyone..we loved to make an ass out of our teachers..from passing comments to discovering condoms in class,we were a pervert group who didn't give a fuck to any kind of rules and policies at school...back then i was a huge fan of cricket,but somehow i preferred football over cricket..Jayanta da maaf korben tobe you suck santosh's hairy balls at sports...you were moreover a hyped bastard hovering around for a job and u couldn't bag a better one than TMA...Santosh da,maaf korben...shei upper nursery te shunechhilam apni bibahito,kintu natnir boyeshi meye gulo k jhhari mara shobav ta hoytoh aapnar ginnir jana chhilo na...Shonoka di r debashish kaku...tomader dujon k ekhono respect kori...er pechhone kono hidden sarcasm nei..Konok da,kono dino sujog pele apnar oi 2poishar taak ta fatiye shob ghyam baar kore ditam...Gopal da,with due respect apni ekta bolod...student der welfare er jonne apni ki korechhen???shob 14-15bar bibahito briddha der amader teacher baniyecchen..r  ki korecchen???sheta apnar bou er upor diye baar korcchi..Ratna boudi,apnar life a problem ta thik kothaye chhilo??oi director er chair a boshten bole eto ghyam???..i promise i'll be back to sharmishtha whatever(not too sure about her title,o nijeo jaane na konta kokhon use kore)...TMA life was morever a gift to me from my friends...from hindi bengali matches to random comments,we were best at everything...we never cared, being so impertinent and distasteful towards our morose teachers..Joyeeta mukherjee if anyone remembers???..was in a crush with her for those who don't know...didi chhilo,toh ki???gopal mitrar baba poishaye thori line martam...Buri.....she used to come to our classs..she tried to teach a bit of history....mone acche shei steel er scale er mystery???buri bhavtoh amar steel er scale taate ektu beshi e acceleration due to gravity chhilo...lets get back to our early days of senior section..BULL HONDO,TOM HONDO,JERRY HONDO...3 friends,1 school,similar attitude towards teachers...Rajiv sinha was the most dangerous friend i ever had....jokhoni teacher ba kono meye ashtoh thele dito,maane all of a sudden...the thing which was most popular among us was football...there were numerous liverpool,man united debates going on..1 thing that I was best at was copying some faggot called Mila nath....onar shamne boshe onake copy kortam...r uni toh ramkrishna amoler manush shob e mathar 22yards upor diye jeto....the most memorable day of my life at TMA was..well actually there were two..1>came second in badminton,er thekeo beshi post match bawal in our class..shei cold drink er chhap ekhono acche...2>i broke the school's main sanitary line..puro bheshe gechhilo....20takar piper jonne 3000 taka charge korechhilo.1 takao deini ekhono....gopal realize korechhilo dakatir o ekta limit acche...r amader love guru Agniv dass toh acchen e....ami r kicchu bollam na ekhane lol....after i left the school in cls 10,life has taken a different turn..anyway you guys justify the word "FUN"...thanks for all these days..i will cherish them throughout my life...
PS-if any incident u want to add to this or u think i have missed,feel free to add them....

Love To Love You

you try to put me through
and entagle me with ur love
i love ur prowess
and love ur beautiful soul
everyday its the same
and i love to love u
lovin u is more dan a dream come true
nd everything i do is out of loving u
u make me feel heaven
as the colors u bring
i wanna grow old wid u
cause i love to love u
u have worked wonders in my life
your smile nd touch
is like a spell dat kills me everytime
now i want u beside me
cause i'm more in love wid u
yes,i love to love u
i know the best days r yet to come
finding u is a cure to all my pain
dis is just a beginning
i promise a justification to u
even at the worst times
i'll shack up cuz i love to love u

 

Repugnant Flesh

lifeless bodies scattered on streets
petrified faces would often mince them
emulating the soul less meat
which are the flesh of the diseased
grotesque remnants was repugnant
dogs still dine on it
they feed on vommitted brain matter
choking down the bile duct
leftovers came out through feces
scourging it out of impulsion
consuming the befouled flesh
devouring the meat butchered
pleasure was found to cut the flesh
chunks of intestinal flesh wounds
as the bodies were mutilated
emulsifying the parts within
profuse bloodshed
disgorging repugnant flesh
yeah fucking bloodsoaked flesh

Uncanny Obsession

eccentric dreams fill my mouth
a strange sense of belonging
to where everything is muted and grave
haunted by migratory fears
i dwell in land where you shall never be

grip uncerntainty
deprived of everything you knew
a god of million whores
hands you your disease

unveil your flesh
protocol of rotting lies
you're headless
you're so spiral

your grave must be dug
the soil must be so black
chill settles in my spine
blood starts to congeal

you're so filthy
so uncanny
such an obsession
almost a cunting disorder

Rule Of Butchery

when the sun dies
the pigeons cry
there prevails a perpetual butchery
lust breeds as the angels cry
they are fucked a million times
autocratic devil kisses the vagina
as the beheaded bodies are retracted
autopsy fails to resonate deaths

they declare war upon the evil
like a castrated monkey
and a bloodsoaked priest
they rage in utmost fear
desperate to kill
they become gore
like a bloody whore swearing upon jesus
which is a futile wish

they defied their orders
as he reminisced few murders
even the god had become brutal
as he promsied two billion whores
only a few petrified bastards
were coward enough to seek refuge
the good and evil are now the same
they are a colloid of butchered chaos

Unforgettable You

hey girl listen up it's me
look into my heart and u'll find love
so please don't hesitate  any more
i cannot wait any longer
there's no need for complications
as time is short,i'm your's
even if your picture fades away
the promises we made ain't forgotten

you gave me many things i love
one of them is you
cry me a river,will you?
now you say,that you're lonely
and you cried the whole night
i'm barely alive now
though miles may come between us
you're always here
you're forever in my mind
help me forget you,will you?

The Weird Song

smile for me my love
let me awake u from ur dream,ur miseries
sadness prevails in every niche of lyf
decieved by a karaoke of tears
treasure every moment u'hv spent wid me
the moments i've missed u,u hated me
involuntary ablaze,yeah i missed u

now da days hv invariably changed
i'm nomore a part of ur life
now i'm wearing out,becoming weak
missing the lullaby,that wonder kiss everynyt
i don't feel alright wen u ain't here
i'm asphyxiated,i seek for u
i seek for u bitch,i miss u

i seek for a lyf overcomed widout u
impossible is the word,sad but true
ur absence suffocates me
that tear rolling down ur cheek
often increased my heartbeat
but i had to live,ur memories kept me alive
nd now smile for me,smile for ur love

bring back da memories alive bitch
those cold winter nights,u n me
the summer evenings,we sat beside each oder
starring at the sun dissapear,like our love
for the lullabies were fake,kisses were illusions
what a spurious identity!
what a nytmare!i'm awake

I Think Of You

i stand so close to u,nd
i think nothing but u
but i must walk away
becuz its time

its time i tell u,how i live to think
its time i tell u dat i'm going away
i am closing our connection
forever nd ever

i want to jump off high
spread my wings nd fly
i wanna run like i hv never run before
nd the only thing dats holding me back
is the memories of u
i am a misfit in my own life
being a blacksheep in a family of five
and now i dont care

now i'm standing on dis hilltop
watching the rain wet me
with my arms spread out
i think of u

Bitch

bereft of your love
abandoned from your kiss
and now i miss you
amplifying my cries within
i miss your hair on my face
your presence was so special
your soft hands that felt my cheeks
your voice resurrected a soul within
now let me drink your love
let me feel your touch, your smile
even the sweetest dreams have turned into nightmares
oh, bitch where art thou?
you're nowhere to be found
oh, bitch! you're mine
and now the days are hard to spend
without you around
you've been a drug to me
a drug that kept my heart and soul together
for you i can die many deaths
and now I've a lonely desire
a desire that can touch a million hearts
oh,bitch! be mine forever